BillCuck
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Aug 1, 2006, 4:49 AM
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I need a means to eliminate my libido.
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Does anyone know of a safe and effective means to significantly reduce or eliminate (preferably) my already low libido? My spouse and I desire to completely eliminate the last bit of my lifelong abnormally weak sex drive. Please allow me to provide some history and explanation for our request for information.
My spouse and I are fully aware of the path that we have chosen. We are very happily married for 19 years. Our strong marriage is based on many things but sex is absolutely not one of them. I have had a nearly nonexistent libido for all of my life. I NEVER had any desire to be intimate with a woman or a man. I find the thought of being sexually intimate with a woman to be both repulsive and disgusting, among other things. My spouse knew this about me while we were dating and throughout our marriage. We are both very comfortable with this situation and we choose to live together as ‘brother and sister’. We share many, many things in common and we truly enjoy being married to one another. We just simply do not share the marital bed together. I am now 50 years old and have no desire or need to all-of-a-sudden try and enhance my libido after all these years. I virtually have no interest in my own sexual gratification. I have not experienced an erection, much less an orgasm, for 8 - 9 years. Prior to that, I would on rare occasion masturbate just because I thought that I was supposed to do that. That sums up my entire lifelong sexual experiences. My spouse and I chose to be married to one another fully knowing that I would never be her sexual partner. When we became engaged, we made a conscious decision that I would be her spouse, and we would share the marriage license together, but that she would need a real man to be her ‘Husband’ to share her marital bed. I provide her with all of the things that a marriage partner would traditionally provide except for the bedroom activities. We have been blessed to have her wonderful ex-husband step into our marriage and assume what we refer to as the traditional ‘Husband’s responsibilities’, that is, satisfying her very strong and constant sex drive. This unique man provides my spouse with the satisfaction that she craves while we were dating, during our honeymoon, and throughout our 19 great years of marriage. He truly is a gentleman, dear friend, confidant, mentor, teacher, and I have the utmost respect for him. He and I are very close and we do many things together. I look up to him as he is the epitome of the word ‘man’. The reason that I am looking for a means to eliminate my nearly nonexistent libido is that I believe that I am starting to have some type of feelings for my spouse’s ex-husband. At first, I mistakenly thought that I was feeling something sexual toward my spouse but thankfully I quickly realized that I still had absolutely no interest for that stinky stuff. I am not quite sure if my feelings for him are sexual in nature as I have never been in-touch with those types of feelings. Over the many years he has and continues to encourage me to perform sex acts on him and I always eagerly accommodated his demands and desires. I always enjoy performing for him as a way of expressing my deep respect, admiration, and love for him. I never view these acts in a sexual way and I never derive any sexual gratification from them. For me, it is always a very mechanical act that I do because I realize how important and meaningful it is for him and how much he enjoys using me for his pleasure. My spouse often encourages me and enjoys seeing me orally satisfy him and she gets sexually excited while watching him use me. I am very happy with the way things are currently. I am a little concerned about my feelings that seemed to have changed slightly toward him. I absolutely do not want them to turn into sexual feelings for him. I want to nip this in the bud before something changes. I haven’t had sexual urges after all these years and I certainly have no need for them now. Maybe I’m wrong; maybe what I’m feeling is not sexual at all. I do not know. But I would like some advice on a means that may reduce or eliminate my weak libido so that I do not have to concern myself with those silly feelings.
I hope that we have shed some light on our desire to eliminate my libido. At this stage in my life, wanting to increase my libido would be like going to school to get a degree in septic tank cleaning so that I may begin a new career cleaning out septic tanks with a bucket. I have absolutely no need or desire to make that change and I would find it to be a very dirty, disgusting, repulsive, and smelly job. I would prefer to leave that work to someone that is infinitely more skilled at the job than I will ever be and to an expert that truly enjoys the work. We have been totally unsuccessful in our search for information to help us out. We’re getting the feeling that castration is the only option to achieving our goal. We may soon be changing the focus of our research to surgery rather than any other means.
Thank you for your help.
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